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Sorry doesn't begin to cut the mustard

He thinks saying sorry is going to make things better; make them alright; make me stay.

He says I'm "the best thing that's ever happened to him" however over the last two years he's done less and less to show me this. He said why didn't I communicate this to him. Problem was I did: I have been but he wasn't listening. He was too busy thinking I was joking with him to take me serious. Things became a bit more exacerbated after February when I nearly died. While I was in the hospital, he hardly came to see me. I hated being there all alone and his twenty minute visits didn't help matters. He knew this but all he had was excuses.

Last night I finally told him that I no longer love him; at least not as a wife. I still care for him as a friend and hope for an amicable split. I didn't want it to end this way. I'm not staying in a relationship where I'm not happy, that's not fair to me or him.

If he becomes insistent that I stay, then I will just have to hasten my departure. Right now I'm thinking March, but I may push it back to February or soon after the Warner Robins trip that I've planned for the Southeast people in the Fifth-Fleet is completed.

If he truly wants to make it right, then he'll let me go. Give me time to move on and heal. I don't want this to be ugly.


HOLY SHAT - I'm off LJ for a couple of months and I miss this?!

*snuggles x twenty zillion* ♥♥♥
Thoughts and prayers.
*hugs* Good for you. I'm glad that you are doing what is best for *YOU*!!!!
*snugs* I'm proud of you, as hard as it must be; you've gotta do what's going to make you happy. You're in my thoughts hon.
He's trying to guilt you into staying. If you are the best thing that has ever happened to him, then he needed to continue to show it.. He's being a toad. And how he thought not coming to see you when you were hospitalized was okay, I will never understand that..

He cannot insist that you stay. If you want to go, then you can go. he does not own you. You are not his personal property!!

I love ya sis and I am here for you!!
he really thinks there is something to be worked out.

I don't want to lose the friendship but at the same time I don't want to stay here. He keeps saying he won't be able to make it here without me. Uh.. get a job??? Between job and social security he would have enough.

I can't seem to get him to understand that I need to move on.
:( Deciding to end a relationship or marriage is never easy, and I'm sorry you were put in a position where you had to do it. :(